many.. many thing wanna write..

hmm.. where should i continue ?
ohh.. after the day she came back, she's very happy.. im happy too bcoz she's back and she's damnn happy..
her voice just sound sooo damnn happy.. that makes me happy too..

after that.. she told me she damnn miss me..
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.. soo touching, i miss her too T^T

but there's something happened during thursday, the day i hangout with her, sky, syau, paik yen, phaik, zy, jc, edwin, andrea..
the 1st movie was at 11+
me, sky syau py phaik zy andrea watched *the killer*
wow.. it was damnnnn nice ! every 1 around him was like a KILLER to kill him ! @@

after movie, 1 +
she reach at 1.. Awww i cant wait to see her, while im walking to meet her from old wing to new wing, i dunnoe why i walk so fast..
den i slow down and wait for sky they all..
a while later.. we reach GSC, and there's the place where my SAD memory start..
she told me she damn miss me !
but den ?
haixx..
i wanted to hug her when i 1st see her at the shop *newplus*
she's like..... maybe don't want or something.. and so she moved away..
*potong-ed* *mood*
nvm luu.. after that we walk to tgv..
at tgv there, 1st time i wanna hold her hand.. she MOVED AWAY !
*potong-ed* * 2nd time ! *
during buying ticket, she stand beside zy ! not me !
i was standing alone over there.. doing nothing =.="

i know she want to watch karate kid..
and so i told them to watch karate kid..
karate kid was at *5 pm till 7 *
i ask her, she say cannot.. she's going back home at 6 !
so.. we changed to TOY story 3 ==
*4.30 till 6*

okayy luu..
after that.. we go to buy jia lengs present..
after buying that.. she say okayy lahh..
you go find your friends lahh.. i go meet my sister d..
my heart was thinking like.. dont lahh.. still got so many time.. i wanna see you longer >< now is only 1++ the movie is like 4.30.. there's 3 hour more..
i never say out.. so she just walk go there..
i wanted to help her to hold the thing she's holding, den hold her hand..
she dowan my help, and i still try to hold her hand lahh..
*2nd time for what day*
she's like no respond !
*potong-ed 3rd time !!* *no mood d.. dulan, emo.. whatever.. all also got just dont have HAPPINESS ! *

after makan bbq plaza with andrea, syau and paik yen..
we go to tgv.. buy drinks..
go in for toy story..

actually my mood okay abit d..
UNTIL SHE TEXT ME..
okayy lahh.. 1st msg nothing..
just normal reply but with those *不开心的语气*
after few msg..
she said okayy lahh.. i also watching movie de..
"i was like.. reach home d..?! ==
"no la.. at ou tgv de..
*i was thinking WTF ?! YOU SAID YOU'RE GOING HOME At 6 ! HOW CAN YOU WATCH MOVIE NOW ?! *
"what movie you watch?

......

"no reply.. whole movie not ENJOYING, and no mood.. dulan also.. she ALWAYS dont reply my msg.. i also dunnoe what she want some times..*

after my movie finish, i went to find JC and EDWIN.. the love bird out there ==
i called her..
"what movie you watching?
"karate kid

....

* i damn fucking pissed off and put down the phone.. damn sad and unhappy also..
bcoz i actually asked her wanna watch karate kid anot, i can teman her... coz my mom can also fetch her home.. she said **dowan**

* WTF ?! you said you're going home at this time.. but now you're watching movie with other ppl ?! boy or girl i also dunnoe.. i just know your sister's there also *
you know i damn freaking unhappy mahh ?
you know i damn sad mah ?!

i asked them to go to haagen daaz..
i cried there..
not like cried.. tears drop..
jc saw, edwin too...

freaking no mood even until i go home..

when im going home.. you called me..
i dont feel like talking


haixx..
dont feel like saying d..

now... once again..
today, i thought we could be like normal, tuition together, happily..
laughhhh... smileee... chit chat over there..
but what ? you dont even seems to want to talk to me..
i was damn very happy you know ? after i receive the present you gave me..

i reach home at 6 after the tuition..
prepare, went out for dinner..
you're not replying my msg since 5.30 ! even at that time, you don't really seems like WANT to SMS or TALK or whatever with me you know ?
it's already 1 something..

I've get FRUSTRATED, DISAPPOINTED ONCE AGAIN !!

when i receive that msg, i keep thinking bout you..
the cute piggy over there..
the pink colour..
i keep like imagine..
im going to call you tonight, and sweet talk, ask you why you gimme this thing..
issit you want me think of you whenever i look at this thing ?

GOD DAMNIT ! it's like..
haixx..
i hate myself for loving you so MUCH !

always, i sms you..
yeahh.. happy sometime..
but.. MOST OF THE TIME, i get all the PUNCHES PUNCH on my HEART !
all the Frustration.. Disappointment..
Im enough of these shyt !


just now, i even think like..
tmr im not going to have full tuition *econ*
will we like hug before leave ?
NO WAY ! you will not fucking do that !
i dont think you even care bout this relationship already..
you're always busy with your thing, your tv.. the lengzai, gossip girl * woahh damn nice ahh !! damn alot lengzai ahh !!*

I'm enough of these SHYT !

seriously.. im already damn tired..
you still want me to WAIT ?
or what.. you gonna change ?
well.. i dont think so...

this is all the feeling you GAVE me ...

I'm making the last call before i TRY to sleep..
maybe you might actually SLEEP ALREADY and forget to TEXT ME...
yeahh..
or maybe you're still BUSYING with your stuffs..
you dont tell me what you do..
how the hell am i suppose to know what my gf is doing alllll these days ?!!
cant you just tell me ?!
what secret..
i thought there should be no SECRET between bf and gf you know..



I'm tired.. not gonna text you EVERYDAY
unless you sms me..


byeee......