Story time ~

Ytd was a blast ! many of my friends went to boon seen party.. of coz including me lahh.. but something happened..
it was fun at 1st, we're 无法想象的 close..
but after that, we get some alcohol drinks.. she get some wine, and i get 2 bottle of wine and half bottle of carlsberg..

at 1st she get drunk.. but im sooo blur ady ><
she kissed me.. i know she dont want to.. just that she's drunk.. thats why she do so..
i hope she kiss me only when she really want to and she actually mean it..

when she's drunk.. she dunnoe herself actually said something that hurt me badly, deeply.. when you're drunk.. janice asked you.. who you like.. you said wai qi.. and mun houng.. You know what i feel ? i feel like there's thousand of needle poke into my heart.. so pain..
and so i ask you.. me lehh ? you said.. you ? you go away ! haixx.. why even when you're drunk.. you still hate me ? ): you keep saying bad things bout me.. trust me.. those things are just some words of mine when im pissed off... i believe you will say something bad and accidently hurt someone when you're angry rite.. ? haixx.. T_T seriously.. i... ):

after that.. i cried like a sohai.. saying whatever thing i think in my heart..
I spill to many ppl.. but im awake after that..
i keep wanna drink, THEY all dont let me drink T_T
suan le bahh.. ady pass le... (:

Thank you SOO much to fiona.. when im crying like a sohai.. cry so badly.. she's the 1 beside me, keep advising me and comfort me.. I've cried for like an hour there.. she's beside me for an hour too.. I know i said something to you.. and you answered me.. i know those answer are just to comfort me.. but still.. fiona.. THX !!! love you ! (: haha..

6dots, you made me laugh.. im sorry to push you down, and sorry made your plan *rainbow colour* fail.. but still.. thx ! love you :P

lou po, lim syau, paik yen, mei san, shannon, kok how, wen yuet, shun lin, wai qi, edwin, jc and d others....
THANK YOU sooooooooo much.. you guys comfort me too.. love you guys.. thx !!

also.. sis, ching and sis de bf..
HAHAHAHA your bf so funny lahh xD sup yo ~~ :P HAHAHAHA xD
thx you guys too.. love you all ya.. (:


and.. seriously.. i still LOVE you.. from the starting till now, till the end.. i never change before.. everyday, everytime, infront of my friend.. I looks like SOO happy, sometime like siao kia lidat.. so high.. but every night, in my room, I emo inside my room.. sometimes.. i even cry, and hide inside my blanket..
even my friend ask me what happen.. i never tell them..


while im crying.. i keep blaming myself, hating myself.. why so sohai go say those thing and hurt you, make you angry, make you cry..
i hate myself why say break up with you..
but everything's too late d.. and I've get your answer..
although i still love you.. but i need to move on without you..
I will try my very best to.. even i still damn love you..
can i just ask you last time ? you still love me mahh.. if you love me.. can gimme your answer ?
i really need to know the answer.. bcoz.. i love you....