hate him, hate you, hate myself more ==

I hate him.. I hate you.. but i hate myself more..ytd i know he texted you.. thought i've told you that im jealous den you might not be so close to him..goshh and today you're like so close to him == and you lied to me !i hate liars....

in my 2nd till 7th X.. whenever there's guy wanna kao them, i'll think like.. give them.. never ever make yourself sad or angry just because of girl.. girlfriend can find again..but now, the so called CUTE GUY find you.. goshh i so fucking jealous i thought of giving you to her.. but.. i dowan let it go just like that .. i don't wanna leave you ><
today in canteen i saw you and him talking to each other SO HAPPILY but den i act like can't see anything and just walk away with daniel..and JUST NOW.. you LIED to me == you said you wanna go sleep, you said you're tired.. but den? like 10+ minutes or maybe awhile later just right after you said you wanna sleep, you go on facebook and you posted this stupid thing XXX's a bad boy + no responsibility..''What?! i tot you're sleeping ?! what's with the post?''
i hate myself..i hate you for making me so love you and being mad easily or pissed of like just a little thing..i hate myself for being SO sohai and selfish or ba dao or whatever crap.. i hate it very much >< hope this thing will be solved ASAP.. if not im sure this will bring to a Unhappy ending.....